I was remembering my desire for a home, likely thinking of a place here yet also feeling the desire to be with family there. I have forgotten that You are not silent to my desires if they follow after You. A home in You is just that – a place of rest, love, togetherness. I know that You work on my desires as if they are Your own, and they are for we walk together.
I must recall that as I am taken ‘out of’ I am also brought ‘in to’ – that financial slavery to someone else, a financial system, a ruling over the will by another – is what I am removed out of, and that I am moved into financial freedom, a release into true prosperity with You.
These are not questions of the heart: Why did I make poor decisions of the past? Have they led me here, to a place where it seems there is no release from the prison of these poor choices? Do I deserve to be here because of these choices? Is there to be no release, no hope, for any change in the future? No home now, because I lost the one chance then? Am I too old for any blessing in this way? Do I now settle for life as it is?
It’s easy to think what could have been can now no longer become. Yet the spark of truth is seen, felt. None of this is true if I believe otherwise. You do not sit idly by as I revel in my wishing things could be different, but seemingly will not. No, You are about my desire deep within: the place of home, the place of freedom, the place of prosperity. You have brought me ‘out of’ and are now bringing me ‘in to’ – You are not silent, not just watching. You are active, moving to bring about the kingdom of God within me, into full freedom – to a place of prosperity, a home. All within the heart of One who cares deeply about my desires, my feelings, my hopes and dreams.
Within your melancholy it is difficult to see, let alone believe, that this is My heart for you. You are touched almost daily with the desire for a place of your own, beholden to no one, free to be with beauty, and peace, and fulfillment. Yet all of these are freely given in abundance within Me.
You sense this, but cannot reconcile this place with Me, us together, with where you seem to be, or desire to be. You feel a home with Me is different than a home of your own at the lake, or with family – that the two are somehow different.
Is My heart not expressed in creation? Are My thoughts just thoughts, just desires, only to pass in the next moment as I contemplate something else? No, My thoughts and desires become – they are not in the eternity to come but are created in the now. My thoughts become.
You are not different; you just believe it to be so. Yet you sense something amiss, that it should not be so – but then you remember the guilt of poor decisions, of actions that should not have been taken, and think that your heart’s desire should somehow be shelved for whatever reason you think might protect you from this guilt.
Have I not redeemed? Have I not set free? Would I not have you joyful? Are you not worthy of this freedom, this home you seek? Do we move all these desires beyond now and into time of the future? You know there is only now, the time to be together.
Is this moment to be unfulfilled, empty of creation to thought and to desire? No. It is to be filled with anything we would want together. Let us therefore build a home together. Let us speak of a place of joy, of peace, of a contentment unsurpassed by any you could imagine – to a place of blessing, a land of your own flowing with abundance, a place of contentment of the heart.
Is this not true freedom, true prosperity, true love? Therefore, as you have seen, continue to believe I wish the same desire for you: a place of your own, even now, even here in this moment. Can you believe?
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