These conversations, Your words, have worn me down. They have been relentless in their expression of Your love, tenderness, patience, and above all, their encouragement to move higher, deeper, with the intent to discover more of You. They have moved me to a place of flow, to a greater desire to move with You, towards a grander view of what lies before me within a walk with You.
It’s as if circumstances have less of an impact, and though still important in our relationship, have less of a tending upon my heart than previously. Then, they were all consuming: what is happening, what can I change to move in the direction of my desires? Now, within them, I see their one main influence: what do they reveal of our kingdom, of You?
In and of themselves perhaps less important, but what do they reveal of the life within? Is the life within a tree concerned with a raging storm? Or is it more concerned with its being, that it might withstand whatever opposes? Life has internal thoughts to develop into what it was created to be – withstanding circumstances seems to strengthen this resolve.
And so I continue to seek Your words of life, that I might come to the place of being all that I am to be in You. Let circumstances come to help shape this process, but let my focus continually be upon the One, that I might become the One in the fullness of Your expression through what is uniquely me.
It has been difficult for you to see yourself as unique among men, for in the past you have compared yourself with them, to discover your importance among them. And in your vision you have found yourself wanting. This has touched your life in ways that has affected your heart – a deep disappointment in not becoming who you believed you were to be.
You have been disappointed in your decisions even from the age of a young man and have felt those decisions dictate the course of your life, as if you no longer had a voice in the direction life would take you. This disappointment has lived within your heart all these years, even to today. You ponder what life would have been had different decisions been made – as with all who travel in this way you now only see that life would have been better.
Yet, in all, you were unaware of your uniqueness within Me, the special attraction I have within you to move upon the circumstances of the life you have lived, and not the life you thought you should have lived. If there were to be any regret it is that you were unaware of the great life you were living, the beauty expressed through your thoughts and actions, the impact unseen upon others. This impact remains unknown by you even now, though there have been small instances that have leaked into your consciousness and circumstances. But you see this is now changing. You have moved through all this emotional turmoil, these trying circumstances, only to discover the true value of life – that of a walk with Me.
If you could have planned your life, have succeeded in all of your desires in the life you had imagined so long ago, would you have been in this place today? Would you have decided to be with Me? Would you know the desire within that we might speak, and be, with each other? Would your heart have wanted this? Perhaps. Yet you see the difficulty that would have presented then in a place of unawareness. For if you were aware you would have chosen Me then, even as I had laid that choice within you.
As you now see your life has come to where your heart is; your thoughts are at the place of creation, your being fully together within My desire for it. We have come to where we have always desired to be: together in all things. And from this place you will now live the life of your desires, but now through Me, where we understand the depth of these desires, the expression of being, the walking in life of who you truly are – one created of Me: living within each heart, the true expression of our being; one that creates: the expression of unimaginable goodness, possibility unknown in your heart or any other, a true prosperity that displays all of its fullness within what may be seen as ordinary.
This you are just beginning to see but shall now know. For you shall be seen in Me even as I shall be seen through you, that the fullness of our kingdom might be displayed, season upon season, always in eternity. Is this not the life you desire to have, and to express?
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